Darkness? Let's just say my clarity is clouded.

Hi, blog. It is between me and you again. I just hope you don't stay silent like you always do.

It terrifies me to suddenly find out that my hatred actually grows two folds. I am so horrified of thinking what kind of person I might become when this level of hatred eventually swallows me. A monster will be born.

I don't quite feel love anymore. I don't know how long I could suppress myself to hate. I know it is just a matter of time before I let the monster out of the cage. Even if I were the first person to be eaten alive for setting it free, I know I will be free from pain once and for all at the very least.

Regardless of how people giving "struggling" or "fighting" as the interpretation to "trying your best", either way they are gonna give in to fate. It is because the more the people try to lay a hand on fate, the more they are going to grow tired. They then surrender to fate even though they have choices. Why? Because seeking a glimpse of peacefulness is what all humans ever desire at the end of the day (as their last wish).

Know what? You and I should just learn to give up. Save the work already! We are stuck in the slides of our individual memories, you and I don't get to change a shit. We merely live in the slides being projected on the screen, neither do you live in the present. Because you are the past of your future living in a series of memory fragments painted on pictures projected in motion that are being played over and over again. It is a loop with no escapes, and of course things will happen and end the same in the loop!

...these written words are not opened for speculations. Making judgments won't do, as it definitely requires much efforts to understand them. Anyway, I am feeling all better now.