Cry now or later?

What was bound to happen gave me a slap in the face.

Epic Failure

We feel lighter when we finally see what is important and what is not. There are many unimportant affairs we face in life. We think a person is good when he is able to take everything down. Therefore, we may want to be good at doing so in order to be excellent and finally be perfect. Ironically, being perfect is unattainable and we are going to fail ourselves when we mistakenly view burdens as stepping stone to the stars.

Disgusted

Try to concentrate on the unchanged part of the changing world.

It's watching me...

I don't know what is wrong with me tonight. I'm sleepy but just don't want to go to sleep. Tomorrow is Monday, it is the start of another cycle again but going to end harder than the ones ended.

They celebrate, I write blog.

I am away from home, it's Dumpling festival today.
If I don't get to celebrate with family, why I don't have rice dumplings to celebrate alone?
Friends are posting their pictures with family and their rice dumplings. Me?

Diary of June, 2012

June 11, 2012
- Even though you were able to revive dead people, you did not bring back their lives. They were no longer the same person you knew when they were resurrected. You just created a bunch of monsters.
June 12, 2012

- I was so exhausted! It was tiring to carry my bag that weighed 3-4kg. They said what was carried making you rich, I thought it was a burden.

June 13, 2012

- People walked around the place and  acted they did not see each other. Were they blind? They were not, they just wished to be.
June 14, 2012
- I was welcoming the biggest torture of today to end the biggest torture of the week.

Stop n Read

Deep

Be that as it may - Willie Nelson & Paula Nelson

I love music very much. Music is the only source of entertainment I get from. I listen to all sorts of music. It has become a vitally important element of my life. I try not to post so many songs because I know with this few readers who are willing to visit my blog, no body is gonna waste his data usage streaming the song. Not many of them in my circle who like to read either....I still do what I will do anyway..I do it for myself.

On the bus

This is the sixth time I experience this, feeling like I'm all alone again going to nowhere on earth. I'm about to head to a place that shapes me and brings me closer to my dream. Each time when I go through this, the feeling is complicated but I am all calmed. It is kind of emotional but not too much. It makes me to think about the person I was, I am and I will be when I reach the end of the journey. I hope I can take down what is in my way and survive it.

Vision

Life is full of challenges. They are inevitable and causing changes from time to time. Each time they strike, they come in new forms, which hit harder and cause more damage. In order to survive the threat of it, one has to move out of his safe zone. Not to resist or get rid of it but to learn to endure the adverse effect of it for extended period of time, to IMUNE it. Time to get my brain to work.

Recovering

It's night again, I'm back to my room as usual. It feels different today. I sense something is going wrong and the difference wakes me from my fantasy. I never felt anything for the past 8 months. I finally feel something now and the feeling is triggered by a small problem. This can tell how weak I have been, just a small matter but the way I react to it making it it matters a lot. I should stand up again after today. Otherwise, I suspect that I'm having severe depression. Knowing the pain is a good sign after all.

I know this is what I wanted when I was unable to...now I can...and the pain is not enough to stop me.....