Overlook or choose to turn a blind eye?

I lost sth which I thought absolutely important to me and grieved over it. What I didn't see was what I had obtained all this while.

圣诞快乐！

哇！我真的真的真的真的很幸福！
感谢主！哈里路亚！

Do you know how does it feel when you are so heartbroken to the point that you wanna end your own life?

Before Losing Hope.

I was not into talking for days after the the invasion of fever, headache, cough, runny nose, sore throat...
Today, when I wanted to read some sentences aloud, my vocal cord failed me!
It couldnt produce voice, the harder I pushed myself, the more painful it got.
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Right now, I feel so dizzy. I know that I have to get some sleep in order to make a quick recovery.
But I cannot fall asleep. My brain has too much to worry. I am stressed.
It is thinking of every single stuff ranging from school to just anything...
I am on my bed for so many days.My groupmates start to judge me that I am not performing.
What about the replacement class? Will I be able to get the attendance this time?..
The probelms are crushing me. How should I deal with them? Where should I begin with?

This time, music does not play its role anymore.
And I can tell no one about my problem.

I have to release the pressure and fear by all means.
I know I have to share it out through blogging.
I know I have to pray hard and have faith.

只剩下一个病人和一张床

连续病了4天，明天就是第5天了。我一定要好起来。
再过3天就是考试天，还没有碰到一页课本。
真的顺其自然自然吧，都快病死了。。
真的很疲倦的身躯。。。。。。
就算再不舒服，到了学校，还是一样要装得很活泼健康。
去年发高烧，一个小时内跑了诊所和医院，两边都验出我体温39点多度。
却没有医生为我开MC。医生拒绝了我的要求，说我回家休息一晚明天就康复了。
一个晚上一共花了近500快。

我一定要更坚强。
世上很多事，真的不简单。。。。。。。

Not as easy as that...

My whole body shuts down for 4 days.
How am I gonna prepare for my coming tests?

An Awe-inspiring Story

I once argued with an american with Phd about fate.
I said I never believed in fate in my whole life.
As I was so down, I revealed my feeling throughout the debate.
She was a phychologist anyway.
She analyzed every single word that came from me.

Her analysis showed that I had myself contradicted.
I had no clue where was I wrong initially.
She then told me a story from the Holy Bible.
The lesson from the story: Life is meaningful, believe in fate but one have to work out.