Numb!

Hey my dear blog! It is me again! It was a long day. Things didn't seem to go on smoothly lately but I didn't feel so bad about them. Well, it was untrue to say that they were not taking a heavy toll on me. It was just that I didn't feel the pain as much. Probably things like that could hit me a couple of times more. And I know I will be fine, because who knows how much a broken heart aches in pain can take. It gets numb. The fact that I am still able to feel, it tells me that misfortunes and sadness are damn real, and they may constantly visit and give me a slap in the face! 

I just need a hug. Any free hugs? Anybody...?

It is me alone again

I have finally got what I want. Money has been spent and time has been used up. Somehow I feel a little not being myself. Have a look at myself in the mirror, I am highly geared up, looking so cashy. This is not me. I abused 2 months of uncommitted life. I was supposed to try something different. 

All I have left is a mouthful of excuses. Some lies designed in an attempt to fool myself and others. How dare... People are not blind and dumb. They see everything and talk about it. I could have known this intuitively. Yet, I choose to cover my vision and block my hearing, pretending things would stay the way I wish. A bad choice.

Right now, there is no time for negativity. Hold my head up and have my actions kicked off. This is how I repay those who did good to me. It is okay to take two steps at a time, but only with careful planning and a strong unmovable heart. 

Elijan Owen, keep things up.