Homecoming

I am taking a risk. In returns, I hope the efforts will blossom and be fruitful. Stay tuned.

Darkness? Let's just say my clarity is clouded.

Hi, blog. It is between me and you again. I just hope you don't stay silent like you always do.

It terrifies me to suddenly find out that my hatred actually grows two folds. I am so horrified of thinking what kind of person I might become when this level of hatred eventually swallows me. A monster will be born.

I don't quite feel love anymore. I don't know how long I could suppress myself to hate. I know it is just a matter of time before I let the monster out of the cage. Even if I were the first person to be eaten alive for setting it free, I know I will be free from pain once and for all at the very least.

Regardless of how people giving "struggling" or "fighting" as the interpretation to "trying your best", either way they are gonna give in to fate. It is because the more the people try to lay a hand on fate, the more they are going to grow tired. They then surrender to fate even though they have choices. Why? Because seeking a glimpse of peacefulness is what all humans ever desire at the end of the day (as their last wish).

Know what? You and I should just learn to give up. Save the work already! We are stuck in the slides of our individual memories, you and I don't get to change a shit. We merely live in the slides being projected on the screen, neither do you live in the present. Because you are the past of your future living in a series of memory fragments painted on pictures projected in motion that are being played over and over again. It is a loop with no escapes, and of course things will happen and end the same in the loop!

...these written words are not opened for speculations. Making judgments won't do, as it definitely requires much efforts to understand them. Anyway, I am feeling all better now.

Numb!

Hey my dear blog! It is me again! It was a long day. Things didn't seem to go on smoothly lately but I didn't feel so bad about them. Well, it was untrue to say that they were not taking a heavy toll on me. It was just that I didn't feel the pain as much. Probably things like that could hit me a couple of times more. And I know I will be fine, because who knows how much a broken heart aches in pain can take. It gets numb. The fact that I am still able to feel, it tells me that misfortunes and sadness are damn real, and they may constantly visit and give me a slap in the face! 

I just need a hug. Any free hugs? Anybody...?

It is me alone again

I have finally got what I want. Money has been spent and time has been used up. Somehow I feel a little not being myself. Have a look at myself in the mirror, I am highly geared up, looking so cashy. This is not me. I abused 2 months of uncommitted life. I was supposed to try something different. 

All I have left is a mouthful of excuses. Some lies designed in an attempt to fool myself and others. How dare... People are not blind and dumb. They see everything and talk about it. I could have known this intuitively. Yet, I choose to cover my vision and block my hearing, pretending things would stay the way I wish. A bad choice.

Right now, there is no time for negativity. Hold my head up and have my actions kicked off. This is how I repay those who did good to me. It is okay to take two steps at a time, but only with careful planning and a strong unmovable heart. 

Elijan Owen, keep things up.

Just Like Crêpe!

You feel like a piece of shit when you are surrounded by crappy people.

I'm officially back to my little bloggie.
Thanks for being here for me after everything.

:-)

法国基佬

真的真的很反胃那死法国基佬。真的觉得他没有朋友。
难怪会跟其他男人到处乱搞，
搞到整个google都是他上"基"店的风光伟事。

拜托不要在我面前做死“法”佬的衰样。
忍了4个星期，我都快被他逼疯了！

还要忍多久啊！
面对这种思想变态 的人，
难道我只能去接受吗？

谁可以来把这个怪胎给收走。
收进葫芦也好，
拿去为鳄鱼是最好。

我憋到快爆炸了！
天啊。 =.= ''

发泄完毕。