Some Random Thoughts

• I have 60 drafts. Mostly are what I reverted to draft after posting. 
• I feel myself stupid.
• I am killing my own image.
• I have limitation.
• My confidence does not last longer.
• I am bound to live following others instruction.
• I can't be a leader yet? Or I am just too afraid to be one? The word 'Useless' comes through my mind.
• Unbalanced.
• I brake others heart while busy complaining how people brake my heart.
• Do I have a friend?
• Laziness got me.
• Embarrassment blows me miles away. How to live in embarrassment?
• I want to end it.
• I am tired. I need a rest. A holiday.
• I know I can go further. I've stopped at two steps away from the starting point.
• Why am I stagnant?
• Am I telling what is happening in life or just being pessimistic?
• My mind is terminally ill.
• People are always seemed perfect to me. Do they see me that way as well? No.
• Can I have a day of rest. Want to be free from this messed up life.
• I have changed my perception of life greatly. Everything seems not right now.
• I used to passionate about what I do. No more now. I don't even know why am I here.
• I laugh more than I did. Do not feel happier. 
• I feel lifeless and numb everyday.
• Guess I am zombifying.
• How to push the limit when you know it is your limit?
• Sarcasm yeah thing that keeps me alive. It tells the truth.
• Lonewalker does not mean one is able to survive alone. It means survive and suffering(rotting) alone.
• Headache.
• My heart is braking. So hurt deep inside.
• Keep on telling myself to get stronger. The more I do, the deeper I sink. To where? Sorrow.
• People face the same problem? Or they really live better and happier? Or I am just discontented?
• Too ambitious. People's expectations and criticisms. Comparisons kill me.