Everybody's Grudge.

I am very moody lately.
I tend to scold people around me.
Should I throw the tantrum?
A BIG yes here!
Because, you're the blacksheep,
wasting my energy serving your needs.
You use me like this is definitely not prudent AT ALL!
You will get the retribution soo soon and sooo unexpectedly.

I know people may start to avoid me.

If you 're one of them who tryna avoid me.
Let me tell you, this is so in vain because you will need my help sooner or later.

I'm so NOT improving lately,
my skill has become obsolete,
my knowledge is insufficient for me to surpass many things.

I'm in the deep trouble lately,
I think I really need to learn something this semester.
This is gonna be something deadly to me,
if I dont find a way to overcome it!

If you're my friend, please do not hold me back.
Save your time and energy to pray for me or assist me when I'm in desperate need of help.
If you stab me at the back or curse me when I'm not around.
I wont hate you, because everything will come back to you one day.

If you're my friend,
read this,
and understand every single word I write.

I'm not always free,
I dont even have enough time for myself.
I use my very own private time to help you, you and you!
I wasted my sleeping time to do everything behind the scene!
It's ok if I am not rewarded.
How shocking it is, when I am blame for everything.
Hey, did you ever say thanks to me?
Ask yourself tonight before sleeping.
I deserve the nightmares in the middle of  night, if you answer YES.
Because this is SO not true!

I am not everybody's servant,
even if i were the servant,
please do not take me like granted.

I try to be kind, nice, mild and meek.
Dont think I am so stupid who know nothing.
Thinking me in this way only show how retarded you're.
Yes, you're retarded.
So damn retarded.

Wondering why?
Because we are all in the game.
We are all being played by fate.
And, it's like a cycle.
No matter it is good or bad happens to me today, it's coming to you the next turn.

So, if you think you're good enough to control this game,
then go for your bed and continue your brainless dream.

Frankly speaking, you're not good enough to fool around,
neither have you the ability to manipulate others thinking.
How moronic!
Shame on you!


R.I.P Amy Winehouse

Inevitable Disasters

Life is like a series of nightmares, it's like when you wake up from bad dreams and you face the real ones.

S.O.S

I need to find a way to speak out something which I cannot share it here ASAP.
I fear I will be ill if I keep this for myself.

I am so demotivated.

The Given Chance

Thanks to Guru Gan's effort. I've ultimately gone through all these...

I cant find a better word to describe how I feel now other than Gratitude.

Suffocated

I need Oxygen.

I should learn the lesson.

A step further

That particular period is extremely crucial for me.
It's going to be an important moment for me in overcoming some fears that I always have.
I am at the second stage now and what I'm going to deal with is really vital for my future goal.

I strongly believe that I am so blessed from time to time.
I am given numerous chances while I was at my most desperate situations.
There is one thing for sure, HE is there, always, hearing my request.
I truly appreciate it, and I swear I will succeed in carrying out this task.

Getting to know HIM and living in a life which is full of HIS creations,
I know I am always protected, assisted, defended, trained, blessed and loved.
With these, I know I will be a loved and successful person in the not-so-far future.

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I swear to myself,
I will continuously move on stage by stage,
fearless,
to pass HIS words,
and tell HIS existence,
to the rest of the world.

终

今后是时候做些调整了。

His Broken Dream

Something disastrous has just frozen the time.

Disappointment

It upsets me so much when I made some careless mistakes again and again.
After the quiz today, I thought I have learnt the lesson to concentrate while answering the questions.
Obviously, I didn't make it.

Tomorrow's challenge is NOT gonna be so easy.
English, scoring a better mark for this paper is always a pain in the ass.
I do not expect much from it....

As I really have problem with mind concentration.
So,
I just wish tomorrow I can atleast stay focused with my sight, mind and hearing.

Please let me finish answering the paper.
I find it silly to leave some parts blank.

Work has been piling up like a hill at the corner of my room.

Something is the major part of my life, and I seriously think I'm losing it.


I'm so not ready yet.
Does anyone pls help me out?

无知。彘

今天有个小弟弟，嘴巴脏到死。
华人不像华人，是条香蕉。
愚蠢到竟然还敢嫌弃别人，
觉得人家低他一等。
平时说话时简直是不长大脑。

除了爱抢风头，在背后数漏人家，就是伪装。
还记得上个学期他对我说了一句话，
一句非常现实的话。
。。。。。。，
我只能说，
他真的是个表里不一的小人。

对待人不真诚，
虚情假意，
踩人痛楚,
自私自利。

拜托，自制一下。
我不想开口骂人。


魔高一尺，道高一丈

Another Song From Yesterday

透

2个月以来，
看懂，听懂，明了的人  真的是一个人。。。都没有。

:-)

憧憬

我是一个非常有方向的人。
通常有方向的人，不是生活疾苦，就是一辈子被厄运缠身，跟厄运纠缠不清。
才导致他们非常懂得为自己的生活打算，安排自己的前途。
这种人并不悲观，反而时时刻刻都非常尽力的为自己摆脱疾苦。
只为了在他们不平凡的一生，能盼到期待已久的日子降临。
他们所追求的，并非是在平静的生活中寻找刺激，
他们要的，区区只是一个平静的夜晚。
好让他们有喘气的时候。

有方向的人不见得是件好事，
反而，他们往往是不断燃烧着自己生命的一群人。
他们非常有规划，用非常拼命的一生，
来达成渺小的心愿。
残酷的事实却在此刻，变成了一个爱欺骗的恶魔，
它扭曲了事实，利用默默付出的人成就他人。
而奋斗了一生的这群人最后只能遗憾终身。
他们的努力都作废了。。。

真正得到幸运之神眷顾的人，
根本不需要为自己的一切付出努力，
他们需要做的就只是享受自己的每一天，
快活的过日子。
因为，命运早已设定这群人是幸运的。
所以，现在非常幸福的人们啊，
你就尽情享受你的人生吧！
千千万万在远处被折腾已久的人都把眼光投射在你们身上。

正在煎熬的人们啊，
你们也别感到绝望。
因为你们的付出我都看见了，
我也感同身受。
我会不断的为大家祈福。

因为，我不仅是个有方向的人，
而且是个非常有方向的人。。。

The Refuge

I love my blog so much.
It's good for me.
It's a place for me to be my true self.
I dont have to pretend.
I dont need to socialize as well.
No lies here.
Only peace in mind.
Whenever I'm lonely or depressed.
It's a place for me.
I can voice out anything in my mind anytime.
I no longer have to keep everything to myself.
It's a great relief.
I think I'm safe from the totally insane world.

:-) Just smile

What If?

Life is full of possibilities...
Today you burst into laughter,
tomorrow, you might be washing your face with tears.

Life is full of surprises...
Today you enjoy the long-waited moment,
tomorrow, you might be regretful of what you have had.

Life is harsh and fragile...
It is all about: sadness, empty promises, disappointments and loneliness.

Do not hate life.
It is the best teacher you can ever find.

Do hate life.
It misguides the weakened souls.

Indeed, life is a confusion.
You'd never know what it is.

360 degrees

I'm back to the starting point.

Procrastination

I swear,

I'm not procrastinating.

I am a human as well,

like you are.

I'm so not over-demanding this time.

Can I have 5 minutes nap, please?

25 minutes-Micheal Learns To Rock

Faith

At the end of the day,

faith is a funny thing.

It turns up when you do not really expect it.

It's like one day,

you realize that the fairytale is slightly different than you dream.

....and that is not important if it's happy ever after.

Just that is happy right now.

"Stranded here
In nothingness
With only tears
And loneliness"

~And You Don't Remember-Mariah Carey~

The way that each of us thinks makes the major difference in where each of us arrives.

-Jim Ron

Agony

I'm not always in a good MOOD.
I'm STRESSFUL with the responsibility over my shoulder.
I CANT help myself most of the time.
In order to ease my PAIN,
I EAT my ass off.
I eat EVERYTHING.

I think I'll be FINE after eating.
However, this is so NOT gonna happen.
It is an ADDICTION.
I eat more and MORE each time I feel like to EAT!
I'm SICK.
I'm so sick of MYSELF.
I'm sick of who I AM.


If you're lost you can look,
and you will find me time after time;
If you fall I will catch you,
I'll be waiting time after time.....

Time After Time-Cyndi Lauper  

 

Better Man-Robbie Williams

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm

In pouring rain

Dont know WHY?

Blink182

Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

Knowing is better than wondering;
Sleeping is better than waiting.

尽在独处

我非常享受独处。
独处是思考的时候，
也是充满灵感的时刻。

每次独处时，都是非常平心静气地坐下来，
好好反省一路来是否每时每刻都很“尽力”地过生活；
或是调整心态，处理一些内在的事情。

很多时候在外边忙碌了老半天，
拖着疲惫地身躯回到家，
独自坐在窗前看着窗外的景色发呆。。。。。。

What Can I do-The Corrs

Living a life

My current life is all about 3R.

-Relatives
-Romance

and also,

-Roommates


From a Distance-Nancy Griffith

Help?

I think I have severe depression.

I'm suffering.


Champagne Supernova-Oasis

Prayer

God, my Father,

may I love You in all things and above all things.
May I reach the joy which You have prepared for me in
Heaven.
Nothing is good that is against Your Will,
and all that is good comes from Your Hand.
Place in my heart a desire to please You
and fill my mind with thoughts of Your Love,
so that I may grow in Your Wisdom and enjoy Your Peace.


Sleep tight-Celine Dion

Gratitude

Through prayer, 
I sought and found trust with others;
I regained confidence and realized the potential that lied within;
My eyes were opened with devotion;
My soul was strengthened with determination and sacrifice.

Through prayers,
I was convinced about the role of existence;
I was taught to accept and look on the brighter side.

By praying and praying,
my life became notable for believing;
my request was granted....


The Answer-Corrinne May

坚持

成功的背後　嘸知有多少苦楚

阮選擇的路　一定堅持到成功

堅定的心伴阮向前走　請你會記著阮的名

有人出世著好命　阮是用命底打拚

嘸驚失敗慢慢向前走　運命不是天註定

只要用心來打拚　一定唱出阮的名

死定。。。

Accounting 如果你叫我死死的跟着步骤做，我想我会。可是，很多东西我还是想不通为什么要酱。头晕到要死。我只是要想到每一课的连接点在哪里。。。我真的很想变一本书出来读。lecture note根本就是大便。我都不懂我在学什么，因为我觉得读lecture note很像在死背做法一样。我不要！我不要！

Bosom Friend

Part 1

     "Country roads take me home, to the the place I belong......" I was chilled to the bone when I was singing the song and strumming the guitar simultaneously at the roadside which throng of people passed by. It was my second year stint in a faraway country and was another frosty winter. Great cold and loneliness fully overwhelmed my weak and skinny body. Nonetheless, I was still there, sat at the corner of the street singing in the crowd as I pinned all my hope on this loathsome career to earn some money to proceed my life.


     That was a wintry somnolent Sunday dusk, my eyes were stinging from the chilled wind and my throat was as dry as a bone in such an extreme weather. I clearly remembered that I took the last swig of champagne which I ever afforded to buy to take the chill off that time. The taste of the champagne was the best in the world! Still, it was a glimmer hope for me to catch the people's attention with my voice when the people were getting fewer as the night had finally fallen. As I was one of the homeless people of no fixed abode, I just simply found a strategic spot to stay temporarily throughout the night.


     At the still of the winter night, the sound of footsteps on the street broke the stillness. It was them again! I couldn't afford to pay off the permit to stay here again. They were a bunch of hoodlums who intended to bully and snatched the little penny that I spent days to earn it. I was truly on the rack when the hoodlum's despicable action to grab away the money from me. Nevertheless, I could only defend myself shortly as I was being beaten unconscious.


     At that moment, I thought that my life would have been culminated under the gangster's beat to death. However, I was saved by her and survived........




Part 2 and 3
-Lost-



I wrote this when I was Form 4, that's years ago...
Sadly, I've lost the part 2 and 3. If you like this, then I might re-write the next parts in advance.



Your Song-Elton John 
Walk of Life-Billie Piper

我真的觉得我的blog越来越黑暗。。

The Angel In The Disguise

After some time of stumbling and fumbling,
I finally see some light dispersing in the darkness.


Thanks to Albert Fang and Gan Gan who help me numerous times.
May God bless you.


Before forgetting, I'd like to wish Albert Fang, many happy returns of the day!!


Lost-Micheal Buble

It's In The Mind, Not In The Eyes...

In the bleak, cold and somber dimension, he is surrounded by the darkness.
The feeling is so intense in the gloomy atmosphere,
where he can only see hopelessness and the bleak future.

Every single mea culpa is filling up the dimension.
It's suffocating him, makes him struggling to breath.
The weep of mournful dusk is so ear-piercing;
The tear of grudged soul is flooding the place.
His world is spinning in his eyes;
His mind is totally coloured by confusion and guiltiness.

His time is so close to an end.
The sense of guilt and disastrous mental abuse are finally overpowering him.
Everything is slowing down in his eyes,
and it is so quiet and motionless around him.
He knows, soon, he will be no longer around.
He just hopes the cessation of his life could end his misery...
once and forever.....



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